Full disclosure: When I was kid, I was diagnosed as ADHD and took medicine for many years. Friends whom I've known since will tell you that I was a hyper "all over the place" guy who had a hard time concentrating on anything that didn't interest me. I stopped taking it in highschool because it made me irritable, and graduated with a C average "on my own". I took medicine again in college and it really helped me get through many maths classes, as well as have stable energy levels to balance both work and school. It still made me irritable, so I went to the lowest dose possible and still had good results.
As an adult, I haven't taken it much, mostly because of more stringent requirements surrounding stimulants. Dr's often times say "you have a good job, a successful marriage, a house, do you really need this?"
Here's the thing: I just can't keep my head down at work.
I've been in the utility industry for going on 7 years now, and despite really liking my job, I can't seem to sit down, shut up, and stop being noticed. I'm a natural born problem solver. I'm very curious. I have an interest in my job, and everyone else's job too. I'm an advocate for myself as well as my coworkers. I'm excellent under pressure, and do my best work when decisions and actions must be made on the fly.
At first glance, I'm a enthusiastic employee who loves his job, shows up to work every day (sometimes late), and whom can be relied on to be both well spoken and outspoken. I'm a great advocate for my coworkers, will ask questions for others even if it makes me look dumb, and who isn't afraid to ask controversial questions for the sake of the group's benefit.
I get super excited to learn new stuff and solve new problems.
Upper management sees me as a great employee because of these traits.
My boss, however, sees this as a negative trait. He doesn't like someone in his department attracting attention, especially when questions I ask may appear to some like my attempts at exploiting the system, or highlighting others doing the same. Ironically enough, he also hates workers who aren't enthusiastic about work. He feels that people SHOULD know what happens "outside their cube." It's not that he's an attention hog, but he feels that when someone asks about his employees, they should be invisible. He's not a quick talker, and stumbles on questions he's not prepared for. It makes him feel his job at is at risk (it's not at all because he's awesome) because his employees are getting more attention than other groups. Our company is very supervisor-to-supervisor in terms of professional interaction, and when people are dealing with me about topics he might not be aware of, he thinks I'm sticking my nose where it might not belong.
I struggle to stay on task, instead I'm always looking to improve systems and processes to avoid "the boring stuff." As a result, I get involved with stuff that I'm not asked to do. It's not that I can't do boring stuff, I can, but I so prioritize learning new stuff that I'll put aside boring "old stuff" to work on exciting "new stuff."
When I talk with some people about these issues, I've heard the following:
1) If I love new challenges and dont like busy work, I should apply for jobs and promotions that have less busy work and more decision making.
2) Part of being a good leader is being able to do the boring stuff. I need to focus.
3) I'm in an industry that doesn't favor my "work-style."
I actually feel slightly threatened in my job security. Even though I'm a great employee, and have no formal disciplinary actions against me, I feel like my boss is about ready to fill out the forms as way of "scaring me" into shutting the hell up and keeping my head down. As my knowledge of the industry, our company,and my place in it grows, I'm finding that harder to do, but I'm not sure if there is a place in the company where I'd fit and be happy, or where I wouldn't piss off and even more "oldschool" supervisor.
Advice?
EDIT: sorry this was one part advice - one part vent.