I know I don't owe anyone an update or anything, none of this was done out of a sense of obligation You all are like family, I know many of you better than I know most of my family and you've been here for all of our ups and downs. It really has been a weird few months. I have done most of it without meds as I didn't like how I felt and they made me hungry which frustrated the surgery and stalled weight loss for a bit. There have been a lot of ups and downs, the time I was stuck home with my leg and the limping around for a couple months afterward really wore me down. I had way to much time to think.
In reply to Trent : It complicates things quite a bit. I know I shouldn't worry about other people's opinions but sometimes it is hard not to. Most of my family and Jodi's have been great, but the ones who weren't are absolute E36 M3 about it. They are mad about all sorts of things, including my occasionally being happy. The new girl's family and friends have had more issues. They loved her husband and don't feel that she is ready to "replace" him. They have not been shy about this either. After meeting me a few of them like me less as she could do much better than me. She's also had a lot of E36 M3 recently having lost her husband, dad and little brother in the last few years. We're very similar and understand each other's situations which has made a lot of this easy but also made us feel guilty at times because we are enjoying a lot of things we couldn't in recent years and sometimes those thoughts creep in at the worst times.
