Well, that escelated quickly. Dang dude, hang tough. It's always darkest before the dawn and all that.
Well, that escelated quickly. Dang dude, hang tough. It's always darkest before the dawn and all that.
Hope everything gets turned around for you. Try and keep your spirits up anyway that you can.
Yeah, I'm trying to keep it as normal as I can with what I can control. I've been playing a E36 M3-ton of GTA online (as several can attest to) and just doing whatever. It's just really rough when the E36 M3 keeps coming. I've bounced back from worse, and made it this far, and still manage to get out of bed in the morning, so there is that. I've always been the type to get the job done regardless of the cost- but it gets awful tiring and unfortunately I'm not 23 anymore, and require more time to pull it back together after it got blown apart. As with anything though it's just another process in life, I guess. Maybe the upshot will be the beer people will finally call me back and tell me I can deliver delicious beer for them. Or something. I need to get my E36 M3 together so I can take A car to A race at some point this decade. Thanks for letting me vent though- I know aside from a few of you that i've gamed with, or Ben who has my race car- I don't know the lot of you personally, and you have no real vested interest in my daily life. Feels good be able to vent, if only for a moment, before it's back to the trenches.
If it makes you feel better, i bought parts for your race car the other day that i'm crossing my fingers i can just turn around and sell because i'm working on a deal for much nicer parts.
Either way, your race car should handle at least equal to, if not better than mine did. 
That does make me feel a LITTLE better. I swear, the only reason I even keep hope alive for that thing is the sheer and absolute lunacy of the idea- and how many people it will make mad when I do finally have it. There are many Evos to troll.....
Jeebus. At least once you get through this, you should be good to go for quite a while in terms of Karma.
Seriously though, it never rains forever, skies will clear and things will get better.
Welp, we put Ray to rest today. I dislike funerals a great deal, especially ones with open caskets. I had a bit of an experience with that many years ago with my own father that's pretty much soured me on the idea.
Odd thought had popped into my head while I was watching my child in the churches nursery (which thankfully let me avoid the actual funeral- a blessing in disguise if I've ever had one). Why DO people do open casket? That's quite literally the last time you will see that persons' material form (assuming there is an immaterial afterlife). I don't know about anyone else, but I don't want to remember someone as a dead body in a box. I'll have enough nightmares after this whole thing (Like I said- I saw the last rites and the breathing tube, and I stared at that monitor for WAY too long).... I don't need to see the end result. In any event, at least it's over with. Now we can move on.
SLIGHT bit of positive news- Tmobile, while they did not hire me for the job I applied for, has sent me two other positions to apply for- which is a good start. It's not a beer truck, but it's something. I just need the next couple days to hold together. The wife has been almost completely absent- choosing to do the family thing. While I respect it- I feel like we need her here too. Like I WON'T say to her (let's face it, I'm not that stupid) "We're still here. He's passed on. Not gonna get more memories of him this way" or something to that effect. More of my own personal frustration, I guess. I'll get over it.
/end rant.
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